Hello, and Happy New Year! Remember me? I know it’s been forever– or to be more precise, it’s been nearly one and a half years since my last blog post. But I’m still here, still wandering around the world and all that. I’m sorry for the long absence, but I really just needed some time to myself.
I won’t go into details here, but the past year and a half was a bit rough for me personally, and I was feeling pretty down for a while. I felt a bit depressed, and like I had lost my sense of purpose. I was working online and traveling around the world, supposedly living the dream, but I wasn’t really sure why I was doing it. Traveling and exploring new places no longer seemed to thrill me like it once had, but I kept doing it for a while simply because I didn’t know what else to do with myself.
I thought a few times about updating this blog, but I just wasn’t in the right frame of mind for it. I also didn’t want to just post something on a whim only to disappear again for several months. If I was going to do it, I wanted to really commit to it… But then I thought, why? What would be the point?
I started this blog a little over five years ago. Shortly after that, I started posting videos on YouTube. My blog posts were mostly about my adventures living in various countries and learning languages, and my videos mostly recorded my attempts at speaking various languages I had studied.
I had this hidden away for a long time, but now I’m going to show it to you again. This was my first ever YouTube video, posted in May 2011:
Talking to a camera wasn’t something that came naturally to me at all, but I did it because I wanted to push myself, and also because posting videos was what all the cool kids were doing. Soon after I posted that first video, I found myself being called a “YouTube polyglot”. (Polyglot (n.): “A person who knows several languages.”) And as I continued to write blog posts, I started getting linked to as a “language blogger”. People other than my mom started to follow me. Having started blogging with a vague notion of perhaps eventually building a large following and maybe even making a living off it, at first the attention was exciting. But then it started to freak me out a bit.[click to continue…]
I learned from the tour guide that this used to be the home of a hermit who shut himself up in that little attic and had food delivered to him in that basket. My first thought upon hearing this was “I want one of those!”
What I’m going to share now is something I’ve told very few people about, simply because it seems rather unusual and I don’t think most people would understand it. But then again I’ve always been surprised by how many people have seemed to identify with things I’ve written on this blog that I thought were unusual, so I’m going to venture to write about this too. [click to continue…]